15th October 2009 Parody- It’s Like Having Theatre All Over Again!

How long has it been since we had to come up with different kinds of stage performance every single week? Oh, it feels so good to be able to dramatize those eccentric ideas which lost its wittiness when penned onto pieces of papers. Once again, we are given the golden opportunity to perform on stage just like what we did in the theatre course under Pn. Juridah a year ago. This day, we are to perform a parody on any fairytale of our choice and gosh, you wouldn’t have imagined the level of excitement in each of us! I bet all you would not disagree with my claim that today’s lecture was one of the best in the past 10 weeks. Don’t you think so? Every group put so much effort in creating their parodies; in fact I think all the groups deserve a pat on the back for the hard work they have shown. Everyone was laughing throughout the two-hour tutorial session! Wouldn’t it be great to see every Literature in English lessons in schools as lively as today’s? If teachers are ready to put in effort in designing interesting activities like this, I believe there will be no more complains about how the Literature in English lessons bored our students to death. I think it is possible to implement what we have done today in any English classrooms in our schools. Although students need to master a certain level of fluency in order to dramatize their ideas, I believe this activity works equally well with students who are of low level of proficiency in the target language because they students can always opt for a pantomime to present their ideas. Students in schools are no different compare to us. Like how we enjoyed laughing our hearts out during our friends’ hilarious parodies, students will also feel the joy and fun if they are given interesting tasks like this! What I see is that each day, students go to school anticipating creatively-planned lessons that will liven up the dull and boring classroom and I think English teachers should be the first to bring such excitement to the schools!

6th October 2009 Jigsaw Puzzle. Oops, I mean Jigsaw Reading!

We almost fell off our chairs the moment Miss Dzeelfa mentioned that we were to reading a 14-page long speech for today’s in-class activity! My goodness, how are we supposed to read and make sense out of such a long text with so little time allocated? In the midst of chaos and panic, our lecturer calmed the storm by introducing a very wise reading strategy, that is, jigsaw reading. The speech was ‘cut’ up and each of us was assigned to different parts of the speech. We then proceed to our ‘expert groups’ whereby those who have the same extracts will sit down and brainstorm the main messages raised in that particular part of the speech. After the brainstorming session, we then go back to our original group and explain the product of the brainstorming session to our fellow group members. As each of the group members discusses their extract, we were able to understand the message of the whole speech without having to go through the hassle of reading the 14-page long speech by Malcolm X. The brainstorming process was a crucial part in jigsaw reading as these ‘expert groups’ need to comprehend the assigned extract so that each of the members in the ‘expert group’ can explain their extracts effective to their group members in the original groups. Sadly some of the members in my ‘expert group’ were rather passive. They were not actively participating in the brainstorming session; instead they were waiting for people to spoon-feed them with the meaning of the extracts. PARASITES!!! It irks me, these good-for-nothing, blood-sucking leeches! I mean, hello! It would not hurt if you open our mouth and contribute some ideas to the discussion! Even if your ideas are not ‘intellectual’, at least put in some effort to show that you are part of this ‘expert group’! What made things worst was that the only male specimen in my ‘expert group’ was too selfish to share his thoughts! Although he had some thoughtful insights to the extract which was assigned to us, he kept his mouth tightly sealed as if he applied UHU glue onto his lips. For goodness sake, share your ideas during the discussion to clear confusions. No! This guy just sat his overweight bottom onto the chair, criticizing and scorning at our misinterpretations of the extract! People, group discussion is all about active participation by all members, therefore, by all means, throw whatever ideas you have and do not hesitate! Even if your insights are not accepted, it does not implied tat your idea was of no good. We learn from the mistakes we made and knowledge is meant to be shared and no kept in secret! The jigsaw reading activity we did indeed overcome the problem of reading a long text and would certainly be an effective strategy to apply to our lessons in the near future. It saves a lot of time and students are in a way ‘pushed’ to interact among each other in order to produce something, in this case, the meaning for each extract. However, jigsaw reading also has its short comings. In order to carry out jigsaw reading, the teacher should first consider the size of the classroom and the noise level of the discussion. Note that ample space should be provided so that students can move around comfortably to form their ‘expert groups’. Secondary school students are noisy by nature so the teacher should also consider the amount of noise that will be generated during the brainstorming session. We certainly do not want the teacher from the next class to accuse the teacher for not being able to control the class. Besides that, students might be tempted to use their mother tongue during the discussion if the teacher grants tem all the freedom to carry out the brainstorming session on their own. Therefore, the teacher should take note that students are using the target language when they carry out the brainstorming session. It will be of no benefit if students carry out the discussion in their mother tongue most of the time. Besides that, the teacher should walk around the class and spend some time to listen to the discussions in each group so as to ensure active participation from every group member and also offer help when students are in need.

10th September 2009 Parody

Though we had a rather short tutorial session today, nevertheless it was very enjoyable because today’s task has got to do with the one area that I am quite good at- making jokes and be humorous! We were asked come up with parody for a fairy tale or fable and thanks to Eunice my group came up with a parody of Rapunzel trying to save Snow White and Sleeping Beauty from a tower which was on fire. Our parody ended quite tragically because all the three princesses did not live happily ever after like the ones mentioned in fairy tales. Rapunzel lost her crowning glory and died of humiliation, Snow White fell to her death because she was just too heavy for Rapunzel’s severely-damaged hair while Sleeping Beauty had her hands amputated because they were bacteria-infested. Scary huh! But that is what reality is all about! Like what John Keats says in his odes- Reality is not a bed of roses. Nothing in the reality is beautiful and fairy tales were the attempts by some individuals to beautify the harsh reality which was too much to bear! I think it will be a great idea to introduce parody into the English Literature classrooms especially to teach works like ‘There’s been a Death at the Opposite House’, ‘The Lotus Eater’, ‘Looking for a Rain God’ etc. These works has one theme in common (in my opinion), that is- we cannot run from reality no matter how harsh it is and reality can be very ugly sometimes. If this is the theme we are suppose to teach our students, then I believe introducing parody into the lesson will at least bring forth element of fun in dealing with serious topics like death, human sacrifice and self-destruction. We can ask students to come up with their own parody on a fairy tale of their choice (just like today’s task) and then compare their parody with the misfortunate events mentioned in literary texts they are going to learn for the lesson. I think students will enjoy the fun of creating their own parody (just like how I’ve enjoyed writing mine!) and they will not only being link the literary texts to themselves better but they will also have a sense of achievement in writing and reading something created by themselves or their peers instead of having to read works written by people they are not familiar with!

For two consecutive lessons we are going to take turns to present our position paper and I am really grateful that I am selected to present on the fir

Again, today we continue to present our position paper to our fellow classmates. Seems like “A Great Injustice” gained popularity among my friends, so many of them are doing on this short story and the stands that they came up with are so controversial that the presentation session almost became a debate competition! Usually my classmates prefer to mind their own businesses during presentation sessions but all of us seem to be ‘awaken’ by the presentations. Everyone are throwing out their ideas and views, some are yelling on top of their voices so that their ideas can be heard, some shaking their heads so hard that they almost detach from their necks! However, this is what I look forward to every class. It is simply exciting to have people with different point of views standing up to defend their thoughts. In fact, I’ve learn a lot during classes like this, really, it is the difference that made each and everyone of us unique! Overall, it was an enjoyable presentation session and hopefully the following sessions will be this exciting too!

1st September 2009 PPP: Position Paper Presentation 1

For two consecutive lessons we are going to take turns to present our position paper and I am really grateful that I am selected to present on the first day (sigh in relieve)! Actually I have already completed the Power Point slides for my presentation ages ago and it is a 12-slides long presentation. Though Miss Dzeelfa only wants us to show our stand and the three supporting details to support our stand, I was too lazy to lessen the number of slides; which is why my presentation seems to be longer than that of my peers. Personally I think I presented well for this presentation as I have given ample elaborations on the points that I have placed in my slide show. The one defect of my presentation (I supposed) should be the large amount of time I took to present my position paper! (Sorry to those who were supposed to present after me) I learn a lot from today’s presentation session, not only from myself but also from my friends who presented well on their position papers. Some of them came up with simple but good stands which left a strong impact to the readers of their position papers. There are a few stands that made the whole class went a little chaotic because the stands were so controversial that each one of us have our own view and say on the topic! Nevertheless I am relieve because the presentation is over and the thoughts of handing in my assignment next Thursday made my day because one great burden is taken away from my chest at last. (Now I will have to start work on the research paper for this course, God please give us the strength to move on!)

17th August 2009 Thesis statement, stand, stance… What the heck?

It is good that Miss Dzeelfa gave us have some practices on writing good stands before we hand in our position papers. I really appreciate it because I realized that I did not have a good stand for my position paper after all despite the fact that I have already completed my position paper. (Imagine I’ve written a four page long position paper without a good start!) In fact, I still can’t differentiate between a thesis statement, a stand and also a stance (a term used in debate tournaments). I mean aren’t they the same? However, today’s tutorial session gave me a clear view on how a stand differs from a thesis statement and that I should use a stand for my position paper instead of a thesis statement. Overall, it was an enjoyable experience to write on a master piece by my favorite poet- John Keats, but to tell you the truth; I had a really hard time try to figure out a stand for my position paper and I really hope that this one will really work!

13th August 2009 Diary oh diary!

I am not into writing diaries. Maybe it is because of my hectic schedule and also the laziness inside of me who conquers the mood to jot down my thoughts for every single day. I will only write when I am force to; externally (e.g. assignments purposes, good wi-fi connection etc) and internally (e.g. joy, depression etc). Sometimes I will write down special moments in beautifully-decorated notebooks and also in my blog as a form of remembrance that I can recollect during my twilight years. I feel that keeping a diary or a journal is a good way of expressing feeling and emotions which are in times too over-whelming to be put into spoken words. There had been many times which I poured out my anger through writing and after a great deal of fingers tapping on the keyboard my anger had already subsided. I suppose writing had rationalized my muddied mind in the end! From time to time I read the previous moments which I have jotted down and how I laugh at myself for acting so silly at that point of my life. Writing journals and reading them after sometime helped me to realize that the problems that I faced aren’t that great after all and to think that I have made it through the rain gives me hopes to strive for the best. Writing journals is the evidence of my growth intellectually, spiritually and mentally. Like how my own ‘collection of special events in my life’ inspires me to move on with live, I believe diaries of other people especially those who have succeed in their lives will be a very good source of reading material to teach and at the same time motivate our students

11th August 2009 I want my own autobiography!

There are normal people who led a great life and inspired many generations. Nelson Mandela was one of them and he will always be known as the true fighter against the Apartheid System in South Africa. His life-time long of rebelling against the system truly inspires the rise of many freedom fighters around the world. And I am grateful that Mandela’s life has been engraved into an autobiography that his legacy lives whenever a person reads his autobiography. I believe there are many other autobiographies about other great personality that can be used as good reading materials to be introduced into the literature classrooms. The lives of these great people might somewhat inspire our students and we hope that they can grow up with positive attitudes so as to succeed in life and leave their legacy to the next generation! (Oh yea, besides, my ego tells me that I should write my own autobiography! It just feels so good to know that all the hardships, struggles and pains that lead to your success are printed into books that will inspire many lives. You’ll be a living legend, and I want to leave my legacy to my students too!)

Where do I find peace?

I really need someone to talk to. Who can hear me now? Here I sit in my room with my back facing my roommate, but I don’t want her to hear me cry. Why am I doing this to myself? Come to think of it I am actually throwing myself into the flames of shame and now I am drowning in the shame of my own wrong-doing. I curse myself for ending up in such a mess; curse my right hand that chose the wretched decision that caused all the humiliation; curse my own damn mouth for lying the shit out of myself. And now, when no one stands for me, I feel lost and helpless. Lost, in the seas of silly idiotic ways I behave; helpless, for having to stand on my own bare feet.

How I wish I could just vanish from this earth this moment than to bear the unbearable shame and guilt upon my shoulders. How do I face my peers tomorrow when they found out that I am the black sheep who tarnish our already tarnished name? Where do I hide when people start looking at me with skeptical eyes? Am I allowed to exist or should I just die rather than suffer the aftermath of my silliness?

Can I call him tonight? Call him when I am at the deepest point of my life. Call him when I have greater shame to bear than to bear the same of calling him up myself? Why do I hesitate? My fingers trembled by the thoughts of dialing his phone number I knew so well; I feel a cold chill down my spine with mere thoughts of his voice embracing my sensitive ears through the phone receiver. I place down the phone, knowing that I will never have the guts to ever call him again like how I used to, for I fear his words will add to the miseries I endure right now. Or will I be more troubled if he does not even bother to pick up the phone…

Here I stare straight into my laptop with quick fingers tapping on the keyboard forming words, feelings and expressions that could not be spoken. I find a sense of security in you, knowing that you will always accept what I have to say; knowing that you will never betray me; knowing that you will always remain silent to the secrets I share with thee. Yet when I have to part with you after a long day’s work, I am alone again, feeling the nothingness that engulfs me like quick sand.

Where do I find peace?

6th August 2009 Black or white, does it matter?

The texts selected for today’s tutorial sessions are famous works which expresses feelings of the minority groups, or better known as the Marginalized work. We looked into some interesting poems by Langston Hughes and my personal favorite-of-the-day should be Cross as it perceives inter-marriage in a more skeptical manner instead of glorifying inter-marriage especially to the whites. Many of the works try to draw our attention towards the hardships, prejudice and troubles minority groups (i.e. African Americans, Native Americans, Torres Straits Islanders) face yesterday and even up to today. It is really sad to know that there are people out there who think themselves as more superior than the others and they try to ‘colonize’ the so-called ‘minor’ or ‘weaker’ ones physically and also mentally. To know that these colonizers go up to the extend of separating children of the minority groups from their family members to ‘civilize’ them is so sick that it is too much for me to bear. How lucky we are because though we too were once colonized but our people did not suffer from such deprive! As we are celebrating our 52nd Independence Day this end of the month, there are a few questions I would like to address to my fellow Malaysian friends out there. What does the Independence Day means to you? Can we proclaim ‘MERDEKA’ proudly or do we still allow ourselves to glorify the ‘grandeur’ of the colonizers? The Prime Minister launched the 1 Malaysia program recently, so what is the significance of this program? Why do we discriminate ourselves according to ethnicity when the purpose of calling ourselves a Malaysian is a way to portray unity? Is our race that important? So what if I am a Chinese, Indian, Malay or minor ethnics from Borneo? Does the difference in the tone of our skin color make us different from one another in terms of nationality? It really irks me when people call me ah moi and I do not think that the Malay girls would like to have themselves called minah, neither do the Indian girls favor the term minachi! We are Malaysians today thanks to the hard work of our leaders from the yesterdays and we should brace this privilege with all our hearts because this is who we are! This is our identity! The time when all of us can shed aside discrimination, brush away grudges we hold upon our brothers of different skin color, religion and beliefs, and cherish the many differences that made us unique; that will be the time we achieve 1 Malaysia; that will be the day we gain true independence! Salam Merdeka!

28th July 2009 H1N1 Outbreak (Run! Run for your lives!!!)

Sad enough, we had to cancel today’s lecture because of that damned H1N1 virus! Gosh, I don’t want to have replacement classes and I don’t want to have my holidays pushed forward two weeks earlier than scheduled! My mind completely returned to the long-semester-break mode and I have lost all intention, motivation and momentum to study, what more completing assignments! Arghhh!!! But sure it was interesting to see people packing their bags and leaving UPM as if the doors of hell just broke loose! Hah, you should see them squashing themselves into the Commuter bus like a school of sardines! It’s prison break, all monkeys break away the chains and gain freedom (only one week of freedom though! Smirk) Adieu~

23st July 2009 Peristiwa di Zoo (Second visit)

The visit to the ‘zoo’ on Tuesday was so exciting that we have to revisit it today no matter what! Nah, I am just kidding! The truth is we did not manage to complete the discussion for “The Zoo Story” by Edward Albee during the last tutorial sessions which is why we are looking at this piece of play again today. I can see the relevance of the tasks given to us during our tutorial sessions with Miss Dzeelfa. Last week we were required to come out with thesis statements for that ‘gatal’ story- “Sara and the Wedding” and this week our task is to find three supporting details to support the thesis statement “Jerry’s death signifies the birth of his pride and dignity”. I can see that the tasks that we carry out in our tutorial sessions actually give us a clear guidance on how we should work on our position paper. I certainly hope that for the weeks to come, more of such activities will be carried out so that we can have a clear guideline on how our position paper should look like. While we were cracking our heads trying to ‘ribut otak’@brainstorm for the three supporting details to hold the given thesis statement, Miss Dzeelfa popped a highly debatable question “Who thinks that Jerry’s death does not signifies the birth of his pride and dignity?” I was among the few who dare raised up their hands over this question. Maybe it is because of my own faith and belief that forbade me to succumb to Jerry’s suicide. Seriously, does death releases one from the agonies suffered in the reality? So what if Jerry’s death continues to haunt Peter’s life after making as if that poor lad was the one who killed him? Should Jerry take pride over such selfish act? Jerry may have chosen a striking way to end his life but at the same time he also stripped Peter out of his intention to live a simple yet contented life with his family and pets. Besides, Jerry does not even have the guts to slit his own wrist and that he has to manipulate thus devastate one good man’s life in order to die! I mean, can you believe this? If Jerry is ever to take pride in such ‘keji’ act, I think he should burn eternally in the flames of shame in hell! If only Jerry bled to death with the sin in his own hands, I would have agreed to his ‘brave moment but silly act’ instead condemning the sin he placed on the innocent’s hands!

21st July 2009 Peristiwa di Zoo (First visit)

Today’s reading material is “The Zoo Story” by Edward Albee, an expert in the Theatre of the Absurd. (Now you know why people who adapted and made this into the Malay version came up with such an eccentric title!) Seriously this piece of work is real hard to understand, and Jerry’s never-seem-to-end utterances do not help much either! It was until the final two pages that the whole play starts to make sense! From this play I can see the ultimate desperation to die; why some people in reality seem so eager to end their lives so quickly! The feeling of not being accepted by the society, the damnation of prejudice, and the evil doings of marginalizing individuals who differ from the norm is the cause of Jerry’s death. If only people around him try to understand him, if only society accepts him for who he is, if only he was given a chance, all these ‘if onlys’ could have saved Jerry from the dagger he longed so much to pierce into his body. The audience/readers were left helpless when Jerry ‘dies’ on stage, but we could save lives if we spare some time to care for the people around us. (Oh, and I really want to know what happened to the black dog in the missing page!)

16th July 2009 Normal tutorial session (eee…cerita gatal!)

I love reading stories. Anything from Lord of the Rings to picture books which gain popularity in the recent years, you name it! I love spending the lazy Sunday afternoons snuggling comfortably in the sofa which a book under my nose. However, of all kinds of genre available, I have this one thing for those luscious and slightly ‘kepochi’-type of texts; chick-lit they call it! Ohhh, how I love the juicy gossips, bitchy cat fights and cute guys swooning me away with their romantic ways! We had a ‘Malaysianised’ chick-lit- “Sara and the Wedding” as our reading material for today’s tutorial session. I guess many from my class enjoyed the text as much as I do as I heard cheeky giggles here and there and saw some innocent individuals blushing like teenagers! ‘Corporate lady desperate to prove herself desirable by screaming rape after enjoying hot, steaming sex with her cousin’, wow, that could make a big-scoop headline if this story happens in reality! “Sara and the Wedding” is indeed a light-hearted story with a great load of values to learn from! (However, I strongly suggest that this text should only be introduced to students who are cognitively and spiritually matured! Do look out for horny individuals like us!) Anyhow, after reading this story I finally start to realize why my mum pesters me to get into a relationship and preferably walk the aisle as soon as possible each time I go back to my hometown! (She can’t wait to marry me off, I guess!) We were given the task after reading the story which is to come out with a stand for “Sara and the Wedding”, and though the task looked like a piece of cake but trust me, it was so hard to put our ideas into words to form a strong thesis statement. This thesis-statement-formation task does give us clear picture on the difference between a good thesis statement and some really bad ones! Thank goodness for the well-picked reading material for today’s tutorials that made the whole session so enjoyable! (Wicked smirk)

14th July 2009 Fancy having theater again, anyone?

Yesterday Miss Dzeelfa assigned us with a reading task based on two diluted versions of Ovid’s works- “Pyramus and Thisbe” and “Daedalus and Icarus”. “Pyramus and Thisbe” was easy to understand and I could almost immediately recognize the similarity of this story to William Shakespeare’s most famous wretched lovers of all time- “Romeo and Juliet”. However the Ovid’s latter work was quite challenging for me to make sense of thanks to the micro-small fonts, missing words probably a result of printing error and the English language that sounded Greek to me. However after reading the story for a few times, I roughly get a gist of what “Daedalus and Icarus” was all about, say 70% out of the overall text. During the lecture today, my group was assigned to summarize “Daedalus and Icarus” in not less than 200 words while some other groups did dialogues for “Pyramus and Thisbe”. It was quite a huge let down for me when my group was assigned to such boring task. Summarize? Oh, for heaven’s sake summary is so out-of-date and I already had a splendid blueprint in mind specially designed for the dialogue between the two tragic lovers! As the five of us were struggling hard to understand the story suddenly the idea of making the summary task fun and applicable for Malaysian schools hit my mind. “Why not we localize the story. Make it funnier with the Ah Beng-style of talking. Let’s do something that deviates from the boring and old-fashioned summary task that haunts us until now!” I told my group members and we were thrilled and shared many laughter during the construction of this one-of-a-kind ‘summary’ (if I am allowed to call it so J) As the five of us pour wacky into sentence on the piece of paper, the brainstorming session allowed me to fully understand the story which lead me to realize the importance of peer-tutoring in class. When it came to the presentation session, those groups who did the dialogue between Pyramus and Thisbe easily won giggles and laughter from the class. Many of them added humor and also songs to make the dialogue interesting which I believe it is crucial especially if we are to catch the attention of our students during the lesson. Iskandar’s rendition of “Pyramus and Thisbe” ala “Brokeback Mountain” style opened our eyes. Iskandar as Thisbe and Khai as Pyramus. Now that is something worth mentioning! Seriously it was dead hilarious and queer to see two men lovingly chasing each other in the jungle like those scenes in Bollywood movies! Situation became quite different when it came to the turn of those who did the summary task for “Daedalus and Icarus”. Sorry to say, but some groups were still stuck and bounded by mentality that summary task is boring and nothing can be done to make this task appealing to themselves (what more their students in the future). Please do not get me wrong, I am not condemning the traditional style of summarizing text, in fact I think Rachel’s group did a wonderfully-detailed summary for this hard-to-understand text! They x-rayed the whole “Daedalus and Icarus” text and had not missed a single detail! (I admit that we over-looked many small but significant elements scattered here and there in the story.) But my advice to the other groups (this includes mine), take a good look at Priya’s group! They almost made a play out of the story, adding monologues, dialogues and also the narrator’s voice. The whole story became alive with actors reciting the line extracted from the text with full of expression and emotion. I mean, wow! They were great and would that certainly win the audience if today’s lecture was replaced with a drama competition! Though my group did quite well in this presentation, my group still needs a lot of brush ups in terms of idea formation and also speech synchronization. Miss Dzeelfa suggested that it would be out of the ordinary if we were able to compose our rendition of “Daedalus and Icarus” into a choral speaking-like presentation. Today’s lecture was definitely fun-tastic, I do not know about the others but I indeed had enjoyed the lesson though some unbearable noises were produced but I know it was for the good since so many of us were able to open up and better express ourselves and this element of fun and excitement is definitely going to work in Malaysian classrooms where these elements better enhance the teaching and learning of English Literature lessons.

9th July 2009 Is this a writing class or what?

This is the second lecture with Miss Dzeelfa and finally, FINALLY we are doing something that clears a little of the mist of confusion that I had towards this course in the previous lecture. Today’s lesson is dedicated solely to the learning of writing good thesis statements! It gives me flashbacks on the academic writing classes I have attended quite sometime ago in FBMK but the difference is that previously we just learn what a thesis statement is while today we look in depth into the features of a well-constructed thesis statement. I would conclude that the fruit of today’s lesson is- a good thesis statement need to be specific, minus the vagueness and ambiguity. Hopefully the project paper that I will be working on in the near future will kick start with an impressive thesis statement that would guide and ease the whole process of completing my project work.

8th July 2009 First day (In a confusion state!!!)

A new semester, a brand new start. Seriously I am still not into the mood of attending mind-grueling lectures and completing endless assignments that pour down like the heavy monsoon rain. And what is the name of this course you say? Project Work? Wow! Surely it sounds important and means serious matters to me! All these while I’ve been doing assignments, but project work? What on earth is that? I thought only architectures and contractors do project work! Confused, is all I can say during our first lecture with Miss Dzeelfa. I have absolutely no idea what it is going to be like for this course in the next 14 weeks, but it is certainly assuring to know that I will be dealing with a ‘project work’ revolving literature. The first lecture takes off with a brief introduction on the background of fables and tales, which catches my attention since I was and still a big fan of talking animals and magical kingdoms! It is indeed a light-hearted lecture. Though I still fail to figure out what this course has to offer, I know that I am going to enjoy it and make the best out of it!

What’s left? Nothing, only the pain of losing you

I’ve cried for 2 nights...no one heard, no one saw the tears, no one knew what had happened...the stale-salty smell of my tears stained on my pillow was the only proof that I’ve shed broken-heart tears. And these tears are for you. My tears just couldn’t resist the gravity pull, it poured down like heavy rain on the day I let you go; the day I pledged to erase you eternally from my memories; the day you shattered my heart into a thousand pieces and left my bleeding helplessly in the abyss. Tears entwine with dripping Crimson River. I was left to heal on my own; no knowing how… It took great effort to pick up my decaying flesh and dying soul from the nests of the vultures; scavengers that feed on wilting being; feeding on me… How do I ever wipe away our every recollection with the image of you deeply engraved in my heart? How do I cast away your sweet words when your voice sings sweet lullabies that linger in my dreams? How do I not breathe the air when your scent fills every dimension? How do I not long for your touch when I tremble each time during movies; yearning to entangle your fingers with mine? How do I push aside the thoughts of us locking lips when I so want to taste the mutual flow of fluid when two lips meet? Save me, for I’m in deep waters with huge waves of despair towering over me. Save me from further self-destruction, pray, do stop me from clinging to the thoughts of you! Haven’t I suffered enough through the act of liking you? What benefit awaits you that you shed all humanity to watch me endure the pain of losing you? What more do you want from me? Does it entertain you to witness such a wretched me? Ah, yes it does! I can tell by just the look of your eyes; you scorned, ah yes you did! Now that someone has legitimately replaced me- your source of entertainment for the past 2 years, you left me rot in this state; all torn and tattered all thanks to the pain you’ve inflicted upon me. And my final words for you? Thanks for the memories!