it's been quite some time since i went M.I.A.
folks, i wanna apologize for that...
not that i've lost interest in blurting out my ups and downs through blogging,
it's just the fact that i don't have enough time!
started working as a junior lecturer on 4th of April and it has been quite challenging and i would say nerve-breaking at times.
working life is so unpredictable!
especially the people you are working with.
just few days ago i got my first taste of serious office politics @ backstabbing @ bitching.
it's not like i've never experienced it before...
but this time,
tastes like shit!
i really miss the days when i proudly call myself a full-time professional student.
nothing to worry about except for assignment deadlines and exams.
now that i'm working AND studying at the same time,
shit doubles.
worst thing is-
i can NEVER trust anyone.
everyone has their own agendas and they are good at putting up poker faces.
and i can't just make enemies as easily as what i usually and will always do during my degree years because who knows i might have to work with these mother fuckers in the future.
it sucks to be the rookie; the newbie simply because i can never make myself heard.
gone are the days where i can shove the I-DON'T-GIVE-A-FUCK attitude to the people and the things that i dislike.
and it's not helping when my workplace is so damn faraway from civilization.
i miss my friends who don't judge me merely after few days of knowing me.
i miss the fact that civilization was just a 10 minutes drive from where i used to live. (now i need drive at least 30 minutes depending on the traffic load)
i having all the time in the world to fully concentrate on my studies and play equally as hard too.
it seems like i've become a little mellow since the day i started working.
i'm no longer so much like that of my usual self...
i talk less (bad sign)
i skip dinner, not even a sip of milo. (bad sign)
in fact, i'm too tired to feel hungry after 9 hours at work. (bad sign)
what is happening to me?
i feel loneliness more intense lately...
it's just so difficult to adjust to a new life with faces, places and culture so alien to mine...
peeps, just a little piece of advice to ya-
embrace every second whilst you're still known as a full-time student.
appreciate your uni buddies especially because when comes to circumstances like what i'm going through now,
they'll be the ones that you'll miss the most.
the money factor is a great motivation to strip off the student title.
but the best days of your lives will always be the times you call yourself a university student.
this is me speaking through experience.
