Hurt Part 2

i made a vow to myself never to allow my pride to be bruised again.

instead of learning from my past mistakes, i've decided to risk my all for another time in hopes that this time will be different...

i PRAYED that this time things would work out.

guessed i've place too much hopes and expectations on us...

and in this game of love once again costs my heart to shatter into a million unrecognizable pieces.

so many times i've been disappointed-

yet this heart has never been able to accustom to the pain of rejection.

the familiar agonizing spasms within my chest...

heavy poundings in my head

hands that turn stone cold...

i know that i'm hurt again.

why do you have such great effect on me?

why do i even feel you when you don't even care to look my way?

why did you take away my ability to smile?

why part of me dies when you've decided to walk out of my life?

the worst part is you don't even know this heart beats for you.

you know i'm not okay.

but how do i explain to you the reason for my solitary suffering is all because of you?

i'm not angry because you've found another.

i'm just frustrated with the fact that i can't stop myself from falling into you.

sorry for giving you cold shoulders but i just can't stand the sight of you anymore!

Hurt Part 1

again, i taste the pain of rejection
the truth came without notification
a girl's dream- what's left? destruction
i'll never win a bit of your affections

i shouldna placed so much expectations
should have realized through your hesitations
yet your charm is like a deadly venom
poisons me with irreversible contamination

my feelings trampled, torn in frustration
my pride shattered into a thousand humiliation
my tears tickled by your cruel intention
i suffocate in this river of emotions

there's no way for a resurrection
neither a u-turn for my salvation
falling for you was a sinful temptation
caused me to bruise and bleed in damnation

A New Chapter of Disaster

It's been so long since the last disaster
That caused my heart to break and wither
Now that I've opened up my heart for another
Sadly this person doesn't seem to bother

You came into my life like beautiful summer
Your warm concerns melted the winter
Your witty jokes brought me so much laughter
I think I'm ready for a whole new chapter

I've longed for us to be together
At least a date or a simple dinner
But your replies are always 'no' or 'never'
Excuses come trashing one after another

You're an enigma that makes me wonder
So many questions urging me to ponder
Yet the more I seek you for an answer
I sense you slowly pushing me further

Your smiles can cause my pride to shatter
Yet at times you're like the bad weather
Either way you've crushed you've plundered
You make me feel as if I don't matter

I've made a vow never to utter
The three words to keep you with me forever
I've too much pride to be seen a loser
But I cannot contain this feeling any longer

I'm drowned in your shadows deeper and deeper
I hope you'll realize sooner or later
Either way it doesn't matter
As long as you give me a sure answer