Locked Emotions...

part of me dies when you chose to leave...

like a rose its petals wither counting down the days you walk away from my life...

the damage is beyond repair

this broken heart is shattered into a thousand pieces there's no way to put it back together again...

...and even if you could, the scars will continue to haunt me...

reminding me how foolish i have been to have fallen into you.

knowing you isn't a mistake at all...in fact it'll be the one sweet memory i'll lock safe in my heart when the day comes for me to leave this place...

but i call myself stupid for ever attempting to follow your footsteps...

to chase after your shadow...

to grasp a ghostly apparition that will yield nothing but grey ashes of those faded memories...

please...

please stop poisoning my mind...

the irreversible venom seeps into my veins...killing me with bittersweet, torturous agony...

here i taste the saltiness of these uncried tears...could you stop them from clouding my vision?

the pain keeps adding on and i suffer silently cause i have no one to turn to...

things get worse when i have to contain these feelings from the one who should...no...must know...

i don't know how long i can stand watching you move on without turning back for a glance...

i fear you'll erase me from your memories as time passes by.

you deserve better...but it's just so hard to let you go...

or perhaps you weren't meant to be mine?

there was never, is not and will never be US...

despite the agony, i still need to put up a poker face, decorate my face with a smile and say bubye to a good 'friend'- you.