Valentine's Wishes 2013

Tis' a day to celebrate
For the married,
complicated,
and also engaged.
Melodious bells ringing here and there,
it's a day where love fills the air.
Couples exchanging sweet kisses and vows,
locking hands tightly not whispering a sound.
Embracing in lovers' arms,
so sweetly indulged.
Looking deep into eyes,
emotions - profound.
Toys, gifts, flowers and lace,
all these worldly things can't replace.
Cos' love is more than the usual ways,
it's a fond feeling that you live with everyday.
Love is the seed planted with tender, loving, care,
showered with effort lovers both share.
Through dark days and hard times,
the tree of love prevails.
Safeguard your hearts,
With faith, compassion and trust.
Because love only flourishes,
when two hearts beat as one.
So don't let it wither,
tarnish or undone.
Valentine's day is not limited to the attached,
for single souls out there,
you have yet to lose the match.
Don't fred,
neither judge,
nor go solemn in dismay.
For love will come by and surprise you someday :D
Happy Valentine's Day!

A Welcoming Goodbye

For time is a friend,

nonetheless a foe.

It waits for no man,

It has no reason to.

It crept in silently -

and slipped away so quickly too!

It brought you happy moments

though some are sucky…boo!

If you fail to treasure it,

I’m sure you’ll regret soon.

It happily witnessed marriages,

celebrated birthdays,

and brought in new born babies too.

Its icy nature took away lives,

tortured some,

and caused people to lose.

A few hours more,

We’ll bid you goodbye.

2012,

You’ve served us with pride.

It’s a year of excitement, adventure,

and the thoughts we might die…

But damn you Mayans,

We are still very much alive!

Well 2013,

You better behave!

Let it be a year

That opens doors to many ways.

May you bless mankind

with the compassion we need.

May the love that is so deprived

flourish once again!

May the world offer a better place

for our little ones.

May wars end

and hatred undone!

May animals be treated

with tender, loving, care.

May the old be respected

For without them we are nowhere.

Happy new year people,

and 2012 a goodbye!

Confessions of a Depressoholic

Depression - 
a venomous serpent waiting to strike
a quick sand taking its time 
the EVIL ONE lurking in delight 
a wandered mind all hollowed inside
a lost soul too tired to try
the DARK LORD poisoning the mind
like a prey waiting to die
like the hunter triumphs over his prize
Depression –
Droplets of tears trickle down from my eyes.

Bubye Mr. Lee

It's been quite some time since he left the company for a better job...now only wanna post this haha XD Stylo hair and tauhu face. Witty jokes that never fail to amaze Tiny he might be but… never underestimate his grace, for he has a heart that gives and never takes. His presence is like sunshine… over the darkest space. When all things fail, he’s the one who put things back in place. He was a good friend to all his mates Watching him leave was a painful gaze Knowing that he’ll be doing great in another place Let’s just hope he’d realize that friendship never ages

Touched by God's Grace

I thought God has erased me from His To-Bless checklist...
After so long that I've kinda drifted apart from Him yet again,
I thought He must have been so disappointed in me that He chose to somehow forget me...
I believe He can-
but He didn't.

This evening I drove to Mid Valley to meet up with with my friends
...and knowing how horrendous searching for a parking space in that forsaken shopping mall can be especially during dinner time,
I thought I was running into a little luck when I got the perfect spot almost immediately after I enter the basement parking.
We had a wonderful time hanging out in a high end cafe and camwhoring on a Bufori...
My friends went on watching a midnight show and I decided to head back home...
Wait!
Where's my ticket?
I remember placing it inside the mini compartment in my bag...
or was it my pocket?
could it be in my purse?
I searched every single nook and cranny but found nothing.
I told myself "Don't worry. Check the dashboard. Maybe I didn't brought it down with me."
No. It wasn't there too.
I turned over the carpets, unloaded my bag, checked through every damned receipts and ATM slips hoping that the ticket might be stuck in between...
Nothing.
The last resort would be paying the penalty for lost tickets
and I was willing (well, not quite actually...) to pay 50 bucks to get out from the eerie parking lot...
Oh crap! Even the cashier counters were closed!
When all things failed...I uttered a silent prayer- "Lord, please help me!"
Still in doubt, I drove to another section hoping to find a security guard or someone who can help me with this situation...
No one came by...
Engulfed with sheer disappointment and fear, I found myself walking towards an autopay machine...
"Geez, what's that sticking out from the ticket feeder? OHEMGEE! It's a ticket!"
I tried to slot the ticket in and the screen read "Ticket paid. Please proceed to exit."
I still didn't believe it so tried it on other machines and the same thing happened.
No one came by to search for the ticket...
My heart shouted with joy! "Thank you Lord! This is a miracle!"
Just when I was happily drove towards the exit, fear struck me again.
This time I took a look at the ticket and the exit time printed on it was 18:37...
I doubted Him again...
My heart was racing, screaming "Help! How am I supposed to get out with an expired ticket? The time is 23:15 and the ticket was checked out 5 hours ago! Dammit! I'm sure the exit feeder will reject my ticket and I'll cause a massive traffic jam with my stupidity!"
I was so scared but there was no turning back...
All the roads were blocked and there was only one exit...
I prayed.
HARD!
When I reached the exit point, I sloted in the ticket with mumbles of prayers in my heart and miraculously the bar gate opened and I was free to go!
All along the journey home I was in disbelief-
Even now, while I'm writing this, part of me still fail to make sense of the miracle that had just happened to me.

God really works in mysterious ways...
and often He left us in such an awestruck condition that all we could do is just praise His mercy and grace upon us!
Although I have such little faith in Him-
He had great faith in me that I'll make it through.
It's like the story of how Peter walked on water with Jesus!
He believes in me and all He asked for was my believe in Him in return.
But I chose to doubt Him...
thrice, in fact.
And when I started to sink into the deep waters of fear,
He reached out His hands and pulled me to safety!
Praise God for He is good!
In fact good is such an understatement-
He is AWESOME!

Locked Emotions...

part of me dies when you chose to leave...

like a rose its petals wither counting down the days you walk away from my life...

the damage is beyond repair

this broken heart is shattered into a thousand pieces there's no way to put it back together again...

...and even if you could, the scars will continue to haunt me...

reminding me how foolish i have been to have fallen into you.

knowing you isn't a mistake at all...in fact it'll be the one sweet memory i'll lock safe in my heart when the day comes for me to leave this place...

but i call myself stupid for ever attempting to follow your footsteps...

to chase after your shadow...

to grasp a ghostly apparition that will yield nothing but grey ashes of those faded memories...

please...

please stop poisoning my mind...

the irreversible venom seeps into my veins...killing me with bittersweet, torturous agony...

here i taste the saltiness of these uncried tears...could you stop them from clouding my vision?

the pain keeps adding on and i suffer silently cause i have no one to turn to...

things get worse when i have to contain these feelings from the one who should...no...must know...

i don't know how long i can stand watching you move on without turning back for a glance...

i fear you'll erase me from your memories as time passes by.

you deserve better...but it's just so hard to let you go...

or perhaps you weren't meant to be mine?

there was never, is not and will never be US...

despite the agony, i still need to put up a poker face, decorate my face with a smile and say bubye to a good 'friend'- you.

It's Shattering Bit by Bit...

just because i'm tolerant in nature doesn't mean you can take advantage and act all bossy around me!

was it necessary to show that sour face of yours when i say i don't wanna bring the umbrella? If you're so concern of being drenched in the rain, well then use yours! and that eye-roll thingy you did when i say i don't own a small foldable umbrella...wtf?

and just because of some god-knows-what reasons you suddenly turned all moody and made the whole shopping trip such a frustratingly sulky experience. if something's bothering your mind why don't you just let it out of your chest rather than having me wondering what wrong i have done to make you brood like that!

and for fuck sake don't think that i didn't feel your anger when i went to the washroom on my own and didn't 'invite' you along! cmon! if you need to go then go lar! don't make faces and tell me "you know i wanted to go to the w.c. too?" hey, you could have come along you know? wtf!

no that i haven't known you well enough to tolerate those habits of yours but why does it have to be always you, you and YOU? i'm really tired of being the 'yes' man and trying to be nice just for the sake of friendship.

and the water sports thing...you really tested my patience. i'm a fool to be in such an excited mood to approach you first! did i ever complain when you say you would invite your school friends and cousins? did i say 'oh, i think i'll be lost in your group of friends just because they speak little English?' it's not like i'm not there with you, you know?! i'm so eager to do this with you and yet you just stood me off like that! weren't you the one who ask me to get more people to join? i wouldn't even thought of going to this shit if i knew from the start that you are so reluctant to go! i'm sorry but this time a word of apology simply isn't enough to remedy the lame excuse you gave.

i don't care if you're reading this but if whatever i wrote pisses you off just remember it wasn't easy for me to put up with your demanding ways at the first place! if you think this is vulgar then perhaps you should learn not pry into people's privacy to fulfill your insecurity.